This is how I lost two years
I fast forwarded into now
This is how I lost you in those years
I lost us both inside myself.
I tried to explain: my brain is full. There is no room.
It was like living in a house with one room lit
Like sailing away into the fog
Like drifting down into the dust
Like disintegrating into ash.
I tried to explain: this is not who I am. This is not who I’ve always been.
Two years I lost.
They slipped away from me
Like holding onto melting snow.
I try to explain: for two years I wasn’t there.
Mind slow. I could not learn. I could not see.
The road washed away beneath my feet
The seasons changed around me.
This is how I lost two years
My head submerged in thick water and mud.
